Shake it off

This past weekend i went to a women's retreat, where the focus was the verse
" Come to me all who are weary and burdened and i will give you rest."
Which honestly is just what i needed at that very moment and its funny how God knows those things. The one things that just kept pushing down on my mind was, " Why would be continue to carry these burdens that Jesus said we would carry for us.?" Why? Why do I, Jessica Flack, continue to struggle to lift these things that i think i can take care when God, Himself says give them to me. Come give them to me, and find rest in Me. Lay down the struggles, wants, and fears, find rest in me. Ive had a rather hard last few years, struggling and sometimes winning over my burden. In the last 7 or so months this burden has taken over me and has been winning. The reason, because i decided to carry it myself. I decided to listen to it and learned to believe the things it was telling me. But what God says is different. This burden ran me down, it made me weak in so many ways. It brought me to a point where i couldnt do it anymore, things were coming to mind to release the pain, hurt and frustration that were not good. This weekend shook me to the core, God shook me. He called me and said "Jessica, let me have it, come to me, depend on me and i will give you rest." He told me is wont be easy, but we as a team will do this together. Because guess what! He is strong enough to carry my burdens! Its so amazing! Though it will be a struggle, and i might not always win, He will always be there. He will pick me up, dust me off, embrace me in a large loving hug, and say" come on, we got this lean into me. I will carry you." Amazing. Amazing!
Something else He taught me was about the journey. From these past years i had just wished away the past. I had wished it has never happened, that some how i was stronger or something. But with out that journey, with out that past i would not need or depend on Him the way i do now. That journey took our relationship from head to heart. It took it from be just believing what my parents believed to a deep personal relationship with my loving Father. So, dont curse that past, God uses all things for good. With out my past i would not be the person i am today.
My life was changed. I am so excited for it.

"Shake It Out"

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues strong
It's always darkest before the dawn

And I've been a fool and I've been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I'm always dragging that horse around

Our love is pastured, such a mournful sound
Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues strong
But it's always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

Though this song is not by a christian artiest or really even about God. (I took parts of it out) That its time to shake it off. The devil has had his hook in my to long. Its time to shake him off. To bury the burden and dance for Jesus!