Monday, December 21, 2009

Glad to be Home

Im home, its a bitter sweet moment. One, its great to be with family and see friends. I love getting up and the kitchen is right there. I love being about to walk around in your pjs. I love having a car! I loving being able to see me friends.
But its very bitter too.....i can do stuff on my own, i have lived be myself now for about six months. please dont tell me what to do. when to get up, when to go to bed. when to clean and when not to. I dont need you at my side all the time. Just cuz im home doesnt mean i need you there all the time.

Most of it is sweet. i love being home. i just have to get used to things. and so do they.
i do miss my friends from back at school..and other stuff.....
but i am glad to be home!!!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

I need to be healed.....

Im sick...i cant be sick right now.So, please pray that i will be healed. i need to be healed. My stomach doesn't hurt as much as it did but now i have diarrhea, and i cant have that. My head is full of crap which i think is the reason for my stomach. Please pray i will be healed.
Jessica

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Daysleeper

Haven’t seemed haven’t seen happy it’s gonna come to me
When it does
I don’t know where I’ll keep it at all
In my room where I sleep to keep away bad dreams
In my heart, I don’t know
Loneliness takes up all that space

So when I’m feeling low I’ll take out my check book and buy a new car
Oh that sweet distraction, that comfortable discontent, I’m in love

Andrea's in the room kicking her shoes off
Sing along, singing along
Shaking our blues off we sing
I’ve come up with a plan so brilliant
Like Times Square, mid-day
Thoughts are directed in every way

And so I’ll keep my eyes on the billboard ads displayed
Kill my heart, no fix it up
Oh those sweet distractions, inviting discontent, I’m in love
-Dear and the headlights- Daysleeper



Im so tired.......I just want to go home. I just want some sun.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Almost Done!!

Im almost there!! just a few more weeks! then im done with my first semester in college! its crazy! i have learned so much about myself and God why here! i have made friends that i know i will have for life! i just need to finish strong, i almost done. God has been so good, He made a way for me to go home for thanksgiving, which was great!! I have so much to do, but im not stressed about it at all. I do need the push to get them done.
Thank you guys so much for all your prayers!
Jessica!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Freezing!


Its freezing! this is the first time its this cold and i dont have a fire...it kinda sucks...
See what i dont get is how it goes from being like 70 degrees to 30 in one week! i promise the weather is bipolar! I dont even have a hat to keep my head warm! so my head freezes! but other then it being cold i am great! busy but great! i like being busy!

Thankful-
for my warm room
my warm coat that keeps me warm
the fact i have friends that love me
that i have money to go out to eat
THAT i can go home for thanksgiving to see my family! even if its just for two days.

Have an amazingly cold day!
Jessica

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

I am so blessed

I am so blessed. i have so much. I have a bed, i am in college. I have tons of friends. I have heat/ air conditioning, and more clothes then i need. I am blessed and i am very selfish. I want more. more clothes, different food. Its to cold, to hot. My bed is not conformable. I complain. I have so much, i am so blessed. I have been so blessed. So, for the rest of November i am going to post things i am thankful for. I dont want to be selfish any more, i dont want to be like this. I want to help, i want to give. I need to.
Pray with me this month that maybe we can all see what we can do to bless someone else. That i can become less selfish and more selfless. To stop complaining because i have it so good.

I am thankful for-
My bed
that i have a family that loves me
That i found God and He loves me
That i can walk
That the sun came up today
for all the clothes i do have.


Blessings
Jessica

Saturday, November 7, 2009

5:30

Guys! its 5:30 in the morning!! why in the world am i up at such an upsurged hour!!!??? well, becasue i am working a banquet...not fun. I really hope i dont have to serve people, that woudl not be good. AND i have to be there till 8..PM!!!! Thats like 14 hours!! Crazy!!!! thats my Saturday....haha
Jessica

Thursday, November 5, 2009

I should not type late at night, i sound depressed.

So, i have decided that typing late at night is not a good thing for me. AND typing late at night when i am tired, not any better! Sorry guys! it sounds like i am so depressed! but really i am not. I ma sad sometimes but for the part i am happy! Just know late night i was really tired and kinda sad! but today is so so so much better! God is good! He loves me! He will always love me! He has the best for me! So i just need to wait, He has the one out there! And if there is not one, I have Him and that is good enough for me!
Thanks people!
Jessica

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I can feel the stress in my back.

Today has been a stressful day, i can feel it in my shoulders. I found out two people, that i didn't even really know, passed away or to put it simple, killed them selves. I dont even know them but i feel my heart hurt. I know what it feels like in a school after someone dies, its not fun. I have all these projects due soon, one of which i know we are not even prepared for. I have to write a paper and even thinking about that stresses me. I just want to go home, i dont get a break till Christmas. That makes me want to cry. I want summer, i want that feeling of being free. I hate cold. I need to stop complaning... i dont it to much. i do alot of things to much. Gods been showing me alot of things i need to change. I hope i can, i am trying. God is helping.
I am going to go back to doing homework.....
Thanks guys
Jessica

Sunday, November 1, 2009

It goes by to fast!

November!!!! it cant be!!! time has gone by so fast! my first semester in college is almost over! its weird....
So Halloween came and went, now i feel fat,haha, way to much candy. I dont know what to do wiht it though, cuz i dont want it, i wish i could go trade it for some apples or something. I start my work out this week. See for life wellness you have to do htis six week program and i start tomorrow. I will work out everyday at four. I am also going to stop sweets again(so i need to get rid of this candy) and eat health. I want to get into shape, like i dont like im fat, just not in shape. I hope i stick with it!

Well i love you all!!
Thank you!!!
Jessica!


P.S.


You now what love, more then i love that you read my blog! Are....LETTERS!!!

You all should write me, send me stuff! send love, apples and prayer!!

Jessica Flack
P.O. Box 458
Point Lookout, MO
65726-0458

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Fail

I failed my roomcheck today.....that does make me happy, i feel like i let myself down. I dont like it. I just did not have time to vacuum this morning or clean the shower. My roommate doent do anything and that bugs me! i hate it........i failing things. Roomchecks, tests and just anything. I always fail tests, no matter hwo hard i study, i have never gotten an A. i dont like that. I dont like failing.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Its to nice to school


Homework, folding laundry and cleaning my room, these are all things i should be doing but i am not. You see the weather out side is beautiful, 66 degrees, sunny! So, i am going to go out there, play take pictures and just have fun!!!!


Homework can wait till the sun is gone and moon comes up.

Friday, October 16, 2009

Midterms are done!!

IM DONE WITH MIDTERMS!HELLO WEEKEND!!!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I wish i was a cat



So i could sleep all day. Im tired. Midterms are not my thing.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Here is not where i want to be

I dont want to be here, i need to be here, but i dont want to be. My friend told me the other day she is going to Australia for a mission trip for 6 months. She will be there and train then they will send her off to some random location. I want to do that, i want to go and do that. I dont want to be here. I hear that and my heart hurts, it gets to excited it hurts! I mean that happens here to, but its not the same. Going out, to some where you dont know to serve God, to do what He wants! To tell people about Him, to love on people, to pray with people, to touch and be touched by people. To feel God going through you as you serve Him! i want to do that. I want to love on people that hurt, i want to hug children that have been hurt. I guess in the end i want to be a missionary, i dont care where. I want to do that or teach kids. Teach them to act, to do plays. I love theater and i think everyone should now what it is and how great it is! So i have no idea what i am majoring in now, theater, elementary ed or theater education with secondary ed. I dont know, i hate not knowing, i want it all to be figured out, i always now what i want but here i dont. I dont like that feeling. I really want to teach kids. I really want to do theater. I dont know. there are so many i dont know, so many emotions. So many wants that i cant have. I think God is teaching me to be patient. there are so many things right now that everyone is telling me, just wait, it will happen. I dont like that, i am not a patient person. so its hard.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Midterms

I need you to pray for me.
I have four midterms. I have taken one but i still have 3 to go. i have tomorrow, i am studying for it now. Its so hard for me to study, i hate it. i have no desire to so i dont find a point. Just pray i will find hte desire and that i will be able to store the information. thanks!!
Midterms-
Tuesday- Life wellness- 8:00 am.-taken
Wednesday- Public Speaking-1:00 pm
Thursday- Food service- 2:30pm
Friday- Intro to hospitality- 2:00, Food service- 3:00(oral)

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Its to cold

Things happen for a reason. As much as we dont want them to happen they do. Some times we can tell that they are good for us, but other times it takes time to see the good in what happened. It didnt take long to see the good in what happened. Its jsut going to take longer to except it, because i dont like it.

Also! i just wanted all you reading out there to know that college is great! i am having so much fun! I am so sorry if it comes across that i am depressed and sad but i am not! Its just that i write when i am going through something hard and if something good happens i dont find time to write about it because i am doing it. So, i will try harder to write about good things too!!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Home!!!


Im going home!! you have no idea how excited i am!! i cant wait! I get to see my family!! i miss them sooo much! I get to see friends!! i get to be in my house!!! I cant wait! just two classes and a test! then i am on the rode!!!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

I love to shop

Im a shopaholic. I am ok with it. I love to shop, if its online or in the store. I currently have Delia's up with two things i am going to buy. Once i get the money. I now its not good to shop, i know you could go into debt but really i dont shop that much. So, in trade i am going to sell some of my clothes so i can buy these. Good trade? I think yes. Falls coming so i am going to sell all the clothes i did not wear this summer. I mean i f i did not wear them this summer i highly doubt i will wear them next summer. There, thats all. I need your thoughts. Selling so i can buy is a good trade? yes? no?
Thanks
Jessica

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Amazing

I am tired, not from life but form an amazing weekend that i just got back from. I had so much fun and god spoke so much to me! I just want to let you all know this week will be better! I love you all, i ma so so so happy right now!
Thank you
Jessica

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Too much rain




Its raining to much. I dont like it. I like sun, i want the sun to come out.
Well, i went to the Latin food thing this weekend, it was fun and boring. I can now say i hate sea food, fish is nasty. Raw fish is even nastier. Other then that my stomach hurts, its been hurting and i dont know why. Its really getting annoying, i hate it. I am good though, i took a 2 and half hour nap today, it was nice. I have to finsh my speech and still dont know what i am writing it on.
Pray-
1. that my stomach stops hurting
2. that i will finsh everythingi have to do today.
3. and anything else you can think of
thanks!
Jessica

Friday, September 11, 2009

He Was on the 81st Floor of 2 World Trade Center

At Thomas Street, about six blocks north of the World Trade Center, the nature of the crowd on the street changed. There was more urgency and less mirth, more police shouting, and amid the crowd was a guy who had been on the 81st floor on 2 World Trade Center when the plane hit. It was just after 10 a.m. Two World Trade Center had just collapsed, and 1 World Trade Center stood smoldering behind him.
At first glance he looked like a snowman except instead of snow he was covered in gray, asbestos-colored ash. He was moving along with the crowd, streaming north up Broadway. His head and neck and shoulders and about halfway down his chest was covered in gray ash. You could make out a pair of bloodshot eyes, and he was running his hand over his head. A small plume of dust drifted off the top of his head as he walked, echoing the larger plume of smoke drifting off of 1 World Trade Center behind him.
"There were about 230 people on the 81st floor and I was one of the last ones out. We took the stairs. There was smoke, but it wasn't fire smoke, it was drywall smoke and dust. The fire was above us."

He was shaking. His eyes were red from dust and maybe tears. He didn't seem like the sort of man who cried. He had fair skin and sandy hair cut in a crewcut. His pants were chinos and he had on docksiders and his shirt was a check button-down.

He was walking along with the crowd, but his body language was a little different. Everyone, even those who weren't looking back, had about them a certain nervous desire to look behind them, to see, to communicate to their neighbor, but this guy had no interest in anything except getting away from where he had just been. It radiated from every muscle in his body. To get away.

"I was almost out. I got down to the lobby, right near the Borders bookstore. And then there was this explosion. I don't know, I just got thrown to the ground and all this stuff fell on top of me."

By now he had dusted his head off, and you could see his skin. It was pale and ashen, one of his eyes was very red. At first I thought maybe it was the dust and perhaps tears that had made his eyes bloodshot, but one eyes was badly inflamed.

He was joined by another man, blue oxford shirt and tie, mid-40s, lawyerly, who worked in the building across the street.

"I watched the whole thing. I saw the second plane hit, the explosion. No one told us to evacuate, and then the building just collapsed and I thought I better get out of here because my building could go too."

On Franklin Street the police were screaming: "There's a package! There's a package! Keep moving!"

They were herding everyone to the left, toward West Broadway. "Trust me! Let's go! People ,let's go, there's an unidentified package across the street!"

The view on West Broadway and Franklin was very good. One Tower, gray sky billowing, the sky darkening.

"I don't know what happened. I just hit the ground, don't know if something hit me or ..."

"It was the force of the building collapsing," said the lawyer.

"I got up and just started walking," said the ashen guy.

There was a huge rumbling sound accompanied by the sound of people shrieking. Everyone who wasn't already looking turned to see the remaining building start to crumble in on itself, a huge ball of smoke rising out from beneath it, a mushroom cloud in reverse. The whole street paused, froze, screamed, some people broke into tears, except for the ashen guy, who just kept walking.

By- Tom Beller
Posted Tuesday, Sept. 11, 2001, at 1:36 PM ET
http://www.slate.com/id/1008262/

I love the way he wrote this.
Jessica

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

To: Daddy

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU! have an amazing day! I wish i was there!!
Your princess,
Jessica

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Week 1!

Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays are the busiest days ever! Tuesdays are my study days along with Thursdays but i have two labs on those days. Its going to be so busy but fun! all my classes are fun but hard! I am excited!!
Please, pray-
1. I would understand my classes
2. I still have this weird cough thing so please pray for that!
3. I have thing due tomorrow and thursday so pray i would get them done!
Thanks guys so much!
Jessica

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Classes!

I start classed tomorrow, its kinda scary and exciting. This weekend was crazy! My family came down and i hung out with them and went put put golfing, with jordyn and jacob.
prayer!
1. Healing, i have not been feeling good for the passed week. cough, throat stuff, stuffy nose and now my stomach hurts( but i think its from some food i ate..hehe)
2. Classes would go good!
3. I would not die under the weight of my back pack.
4. I would find friends in my classes.
Thank you so much guys!!!
Jessica

Thursday, August 20, 2009

A week

So, tomorrow it will be a week that i have been here. Its been great! i have met some great people, seen some cute guys and had fun! but i think in my mind i think of it as camp, so getting used to it not being camp and college will hit me next week. Its hard now, home sickness creeps up but i stop it in its tracks. Please pray-
1. I will settle fast.
2. I keep making friends
3. What happens, happens
Thanks guys
Jessica

Sunday, August 16, 2009

College!

So, i have been her for about two days now. Its really fun fun!!
Prayer!!
1. I have a cold allergy thing, please pray it goes away!!
2. that i would find friends quick!
3. i would get settled!

thanks!!
Jessica

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Leaving!

So, tomorrow I leave for college! Its exciting and scary!
on this blog I am just going to share my life in college! Things i need prayer for and my life! I will not be posting every day, once to twice a month at the least!
What i need prayer for today-
1. That we can get every thing done in time.
2. safe trip up to CofO
3. That everything will go smoothly getting me settled.

thanks!
Jessica