Fail

I failed my roomcheck today.....that does make me happy, i feel like i let myself down. I dont like it. I just did not have time to vacuum this morning or clean the shower. My roommate doent do anything and that bugs me! i hate it........i failing things. Roomchecks, tests and just anything. I always fail tests, no matter hwo hard i study, i have never gotten an A. i dont like that. I dont like failing.

Its to nice to school

Homework, folding laundry and cleaning my room, these are all things i should be doing but i am not. You see the weather out side is beautiful, 66 degrees, sunny! So, i am going to go out there, play take pictures and just have fun!!!!


Homework can wait till the sun is gone and moon comes up.

Midterms are done!!

IM DONE WITH MIDTERMS!HELLO WEEKEND!!!

I wish i was a cat

So i could sleep all day. Im tired. Midterms are not my thing.

Here is not where i want to be

I dont want to be here, i need to be here, but i dont want to be. My friend told me the other day she is going to Australia for a mission trip for 6 months. She will be there and train then they will send her off to some random location. I want to do that, i want to go and do that. I dont want to be here. I hear that and my heart hurts, it gets to excited it hurts! I mean that happens here to, but its not the same. Going out, to some where you dont know to serve God, to do what He wants! To tell people about Him, to love on people, to pray with people, to touch and be touched by people. To feel God going through you as you serve Him! i want to do that. I want to love on people that hurt, i want to hug children that have been hurt. I guess in the end i want to be a missionary, i dont care where. I want to do that or teach kids. Teach them to act, to do plays. I love theater and i think everyone should now what it is and how great it is! So i have no idea what i am majoring in now, theater, elementary ed or theater education with secondary ed. I dont know, i hate not knowing, i want it all to be figured out, i always now what i want but here i dont. I dont like that feeling. I really want to teach kids. I really want to do theater. I dont know. there are so many i dont know, so many emotions. So many wants that i cant have. I think God is teaching me to be patient. there are so many things right now that everyone is telling me, just wait, it will happen. I dont like that, i am not a patient person. so its hard.

Midterms

I need you to pray for me.
I have four midterms. I have taken one but i still have 3 to go. i have tomorrow, i am studying for it now. Its so hard for me to study, i hate it. i have no desire to so i dont find a point. Just pray i will find hte desire and that i will be able to store the information. thanks!!
Midterms-
Tuesday- Life wellness- 8:00 am.-taken
Wednesday- Public Speaking-1:00 pm
Thursday- Food service- 2:30pm
Friday- Intro to hospitality- 2:00, Food service- 3:00(oral)

Its to cold

Things happen for a reason. As much as we dont want them to happen they do. Some times we can tell that they are good for us, but other times it takes time to see the good in what happened. It didnt take long to see the good in what happened. Its jsut going to take longer to except it, because i dont like it.

Also! i just wanted all you reading out there to know that college is great! i am having so much fun! I am so sorry if it comes across that i am depressed and sad but i am not! Its just that i write when i am going through something hard and if something good happens i dont find time to write about it because i am doing it. So, i will try harder to write about good things too!!

Home!!!

Im going home!! you have no idea how excited i am!! i cant wait! I get to see my family!! i miss them sooo much! I get to see friends!! i get to be in my house!!! I cant wait! just two classes and a test! then i am on the rode!!!