Its better to give then receive.

I know its only almost thanksgiving, but Christmas has been on my mind lately. Each year on Christmas day we all go down and open presents that the next year we wont even need or remember. and each year the selfish heart in us gets all greedy in wanting more and more and more. I know, it happens to me every year. But what if we gave instead of received this year? what if?
I had that thought today when i was sitting in a missions convo i had to go to. He was talking about all the need people in the world and how God equips us to go tell them about Him. I was just thinging about everything i WANTED for christmas. I dont NEED anything though. I just WANT. WANT. WANT. but why do i want more. whats that point? once i have clothes, a bed and food. i dont NEED anything, but more of God and family and Friends. The books on my shelf dont really get read they are just there for show, the movies only get watched every so often. the other random stuff never is used. Its all there to show people me? but am i my stuff? no of course not, i am me! And people should not judge me for my stuff but for how i act and what i do. Stuff does not matter. in the end it wont be there. It wont help us. But what will matter is what we do with this one life God has given. What we will do to show Him to others, and What we will do to get closer to Him.
Stuff doesnt matter, God matters, and what He wants us to do matters. So, listen to His voice and act. I know i will. =)

We all hide....

A mask is something that is very easy put on. People expect you to smile and be happy. No one likes a long face. So we put on are masks and walk around, no one knows what is going on inside, no one knows if we are hurting or sad. Because we hide it from the world, with a big fake smile. And the look of everything is perfect and fine! When really are heart is being torn into a million piece, by pain we cant explain. We cant talk about it. We dont want to think about it. We fool others and are selves into thinking everything is ok. But when you are alone in your bed, those thought creep in and you do all you can not to break down. To be alone is less painful, no one would care if you were suddenly gone, you are such a screw up look at everything you have done and are doing, you will never succeed, failure. The thought swirl and spin around in your head and your mask comes off. Everything is not ok. Life has gotten you. So inside of a mask you fall into loneliness, you run form everything and everyone. because just like it said, To be alone is much less painful.

But the joy of the Lord is my strength. Because i am never alone. because He is here and He never hurts me.