A mask is something that is very easy put on. People expect you to smile and be happy. No one likes a long face. So we put on are masks and walk around, no one knows what is going on inside, no one knows if we are hurting or sad. Because we hide it from the world, with a big fake smile. And the look of everything is perfect and fine! When really are heart is being torn into a million piece, by pain we cant explain. We cant talk about it. We dont want to think about it. We fool others and are selves into thinking everything is ok. But when you are alone in your bed, those thought creep in and you do all you can not to break down. To be alone is less painful, no one would care if you were suddenly gone, you are such a screw up look at everything you have done and are doing, you will never succeed, failure. The thought swirl and spin around in your head and your mask comes off. Everything is not ok. Life has gotten you. So inside of a mask you fall into loneliness, you run form everything and everyone. because just like it said, To be alone is much less painful.
But the joy of the Lord is my strength. Because i am never alone. because He is here and He never hurts me.
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