Here is not where i want to be

I dont want to be here, i need to be here, but i dont want to be. My friend told me the other day she is going to Australia for a mission trip for 6 months. She will be there and train then they will send her off to some random location. I want to do that, i want to go and do that. I dont want to be here. I hear that and my heart hurts, it gets to excited it hurts! I mean that happens here to, but its not the same. Going out, to some where you dont know to serve God, to do what He wants! To tell people about Him, to love on people, to pray with people, to touch and be touched by people. To feel God going through you as you serve Him! i want to do that. I want to love on people that hurt, i want to hug children that have been hurt. I guess in the end i want to be a missionary, i dont care where. I want to do that or teach kids. Teach them to act, to do plays. I love theater and i think everyone should now what it is and how great it is! So i have no idea what i am majoring in now, theater, elementary ed or theater education with secondary ed. I dont know, i hate not knowing, i want it all to be figured out, i always now what i want but here i dont. I dont like that feeling. I really want to teach kids. I really want to do theater. I dont know. there are so many i dont know, so many emotions. So many wants that i cant have. I think God is teaching me to be patient. there are so many things right now that everyone is telling me, just wait, it will happen. I dont like that, i am not a patient person. so its hard.